Stressed out…Need to figure out a way to relax
I’m going to rant a bit: One: I’m pregnant and everything seems 1000 times worst then it did before I was pregnant. It’s like someone turn up my anxiety levels with a flip of a switch. The baby is only 12 weeks away from being here I am 0% ready for it. Two: Being alone right now is harder then it was for me before I got pregnant as well. I used to love to be alone and even sometime prefer to be alone, but right now I’m on edge and I can’t wait for David to be home from Bad River. I also find it harder to cook just for one person, I’m like what do I eat? I swear if this baby wasn’t in me I would be living off of caned corn. Three: This fucking apartment of mine is killing me the landlord is a piece of shit human. We had the roof of our bathroom fall in a few weeks ago fucking up everything in the all ready not working bathroom. They come and “fix” the massive whole by just propping up more drywall, the apartment above me is still leaking and making mold every fucking place. From the massive hole came the mice, I have already killed 6 of them. Then you have the bugs the roaches and bed bugs. You are most likely reading this and I guessing you are thinking they must be dirty people. No we are not we wash and bleach everything all the fucking time, on top of that we have used every trap and spray out there. Only to find out that other people in the building are having the same issues. This add to the baby stress. I don’t want to bring the baby in here, so that means finding a new place in two months time.
No one should ever think you are unclean. I miss you and David, and I am so proud of the family you are. I’m sorry you are feeling alone right now babe <3 in a few weeks you will see this beautiful baby, and I am so jealous. Maybe try corn salad? Can you eat corn while pregnant?
If you can, just drop some black beans with some canned corn, some salsa and avocados. Cold, will help with the heat, and healthy.
Can y’all stay at the AIC for a bit so that the mold doesn’t make you sick? Let me know if you need anything bae, y’all are the strongest people I know, and deserve strong community <3
Just know that even though I’m across the nation, all three of you are in my nightly prayers <3